I’ve really just been using it for a photo host since I have a Lifetime subscription.  Don’t ask why I do, I just do.  Basically because it’s reliable.  I won’t lose any of them, unless Xanga shuts down, and if it does then I won’t feel bad because I’m not the only one.  So, last post I made…I just turned 18?  Well, hell, I’m 19 almost 20 now.  Man, I’ve had this thing for a while now.  What’s on my mind, hows life you might be asking. 

Well, life is grand.  Don’t think I could complain much.  Working on becoming independent.  Yeah, still live with the parents but I can’t complain too much.  We still fight just as much as 2 years ago, just over different things now.  Well, sometimes the same things haha.  Some things will just never change with me. 

I probably won’t check this much, and if I do, I won’t really know how the manuever.  Xanga has changed so much now that I can’t find anything.  Remember the old days?  Where all you had to worry about was your “Look and Feel” and how many comments you got and who made a new post that day?  What happened?

Simplifying things only complicates people who were out of the game for a while.

Myspace URL is as follows:

www.myspace.com/calebcooley1989

Find me there most of the time.

It’s my birthday. I’m 18. Wooo.

Dear Xanga,

     You’re dead to me.

Sincerely,
Caleb

Figure out which of your crushes is most likely to work out in a relationship.  This site uses mathmatic algorithms to create the most possible matches based on the letters in your name and the crushes name.  Check this out for real.

Crush Calculator

It worked for me haha. I put my girlfriend’s name in there along with two other fake peoples names and it picked my girlfriend’s name everytime. I did it like 5 times. Crazy man. Anyways, go check out the band’s site. F-Wizzay for shizzay. haha I’m weird tonight.

-Caleb

My life is really good right now.

I know some people are against it, but yeah I had a relapse.  I’m back with Dani, and I really think we’ve mature alot more since we were going out last time.  It’s not so much about physical attraction anymore.  We’ve really connected in a way beyond that.  I dunno, she and I both have a feeling that it’s a deeper relationship than what it once was, and both of us are really happy with that.  That kind of relationship makes me happy.

I haven’t talked to my cousin Jonathan in a while now.  It kind of makes me disappointed with how I’ve acted around him.  All the things I’ve done with him that wound up getting both of us in trouble and his parents losing their trust with him around me has made me think.  I’ve done alot of growing up since then I believe.  I’m not really as “wild” anymore I guess.  I just want to apologize to him for all the things that led to him getting in trouble because of me.  I need to listen more, and think more, and then listen some more after that.

The band is doing really well.  We made some changes with the line-up.  We no longer have a keyboard player, and now we just have 6 members.  It should really be cut down to 5 in my opinion but it seems to be working out alright for now.  The line-up is as follows:

Ryan – Lead Vocals
Bryn – Guitar
Mikey – Drums
Caleb (me) – Bass
Grant – Guitar
Bryan – Vocals

I think the band is really maturing in their sound and how they want to be seen.  We now have a fully functional light show to go with everything.  Skillet (Tech 1) and Fire-Crotch (Tech 2) have helped out alot with that.  We’ve written 7 or 8 songs so far (I’m still not sure anymore), which includes one new one tonight that we’re still perfecting.  We’ll have a new recording up soon on the MySpace, and it should be halfway decent.  We’ve decided to tune in Drop C, giving the band’s sound a lower, fuller sound.  So be on the lookout for us, we’re planning a tour next summer which could involve anything from going to all the venues in Arkansas, to even going straight up the middle of the U.S. all the way to Chicago.  I hope both.  But yeah, it’s going great.

On the other hand, finding a job ISN’T.  I need one badly.

But this is it for now.  I’m done, finished, finito. Through. 

Later.

So what’s new in my life….

….I’ve gone 4 days without a cigarette because I’m attempting to quit.

….I’m having estrogen withdrawls.

….The Omen is the dumbest movie ever.

….I finally got over my problem of girls calling me “Baby”.

….I’m still single.

….I want a pony.

IGNORE THESE FOUR WORDS

She says
She likes me,
wants to have a relationship,
not ready for one yet,
but starts talking to another guy.

I’m about tired of being the last pick of the litter you know?  I really wish finding a girl were easier because the doctors say I have ADHD and so I get side-tracked way too much.  I’m about to side-track myself from finding a relationship…period. 

I mean, honestly, I do all I can.  I’m a nice guy, I don’t cheat on the person I’m with, and I respect women more than most guys do, or so I’ve been told.

Yet, when it comes down to it, it’s always something little that trips up the entire process, and my philosophy on my relationships rings true time and time again:

Every girl that I like, I never get, and every girl I never think of, I always end up with.

Why on Earth can’t I just end up with a girl that I planned on?  A girl that is in a good location for that matter.  Hell, at the very least, a girl that I have alot in common with?

I guess women are like that sometimes though.  They pass up the good guy for the better looking ones, and they pass up the better looking ones for the ones with money, and they pass up the ones with money for the ones with fame.

But I’m going to stop trying to figure out girls, just like I stopped trying to figure out God, because every single time I think I’ve figured them out and know everything I need to know about them, they set out to prove that I know nothing at all, and I always feel like a complete idiot at the end of the day.

-Caleb

This is a letter a friend-girl of mine wrote to my ex….haha funny shit.

Anastacia Schrader:

Dear Dani,

look i don’t like you and you don’t like me. and that’s all good. i don’t want you to like me.

but i need to say something. you are a very rude person. you have no respect for caleb. making out with some other guy in his room. that’s fucked up. hitting him in public, tha’s just immature. and yeah you got it right “darling” he does like me.

GROW UP AND GET OVER IT.

telling him not to read a poem at the loft because it hurts your feelings. then you write a poem out of no where about him. how do you think that makes him feel?

Anastacia Schrader: you need to open up your pretty eyes and realize that the world doesn’t revolve around you and that guys aren’t just going to throw down their lives and beliefs to be with you, or to make you happy.

your not everything Danielle. you have a very ugly outside because the way you are on the inside. the world turns but not around you. i advise you to do some serious soul searching and find out who you really are. i know I don’t know you very well but from what i’ve what i’ve heard you can be a very nice very mature young lady. don’t shine yourself to be any other way. do what you need to do, and don’t worry about other people. exspecially an ex boyfriend, don’t get pissed because he likes someone else and not you.

stacey

Caleb Cooley: brutal
Anastacia Schrader: not really that’s me being nice
Caleb Cooley: wow
Caleb Cooley: even more brutal
Anastacia Schrader: lol whatever
Caleb Cooley: I’d hate to see you being mean….that’d be like…..brutalXcore

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